I’ve been wanting to write this post for the last week, but I’ve been too busy binge watching Making a Murderer on Netflix. Now that I’m done with it, maybe my life can resume and I can actually be productive in my spare time. (By spare time, I mean the small chance that I have all three kids sleeping at the same time).
Anyway, last week was my breakthrough week. I totally forgot about the breakthrough, but it happens and it’s amazing, and since there are so many New Year’s Resolutioners out there, I thought I would share my breakthrough and remind you that some version of this happens to everyone.
It all started last Tuesday, when I made it to one of my favorite yoga classes at Charleston Power Yoga. To be honest, I’ve been avoiding my yoga practice. It is such an important part of my life, and I’m not the same person without it. I need it. My family needs me to have it. I can’t afford to avoid it, but with some pretty hefty weight loss goals, I’ve been spending all of my “away from the kids time” knocking out my cardio and strength training. That is NO excuse. I’m not too busy to take care of myself and help my anxiety. Nothing is more important than self care. I run a pretty serious operation, and I have to be okay for this family to work. Anyway, I’ve been avoiding it because it’s fucking hard, and I have a big fucking ego, and I hate feeling weak, etc. It’s a really bad feeling to not recognize your body and what it’s capable of. But here’s the key…put on your big girl pants and FUCKING DO IT ANYWAY! Eventually, it will feel good again, and that’s exactly what happened to me this week. I started recognizing how each pose felt and it felt like MY practice again (and it helped my yoga ego that I was able to hold handstand. I know, I know, I’m still working on the whole ego thing.) It took 10 weeks to get there, but it DOES happen.
After that, everything started falling into place. I trained with Amanda, who has TOTALLY and completely ramped up our workouts. She got out the 24″ box for box jumps…holy shit. I was a little scared and doubting myself, but I knocked out 3 sets, and for the first time in a VERY long time I felt like an athlete again.
My runs have been faster, cardio has felt better and spin class is fun again. It took 10 weeks from when I was first cleared for exercise, but it finally happened.
For those people starting a fitness routine or getting back in shape for the New Year, this will happen. It will get easier, you will get stronger and it will be more fun than it is in the beginning. Stay focused…your breakthrough could be just around the corner.
